The Forgotten Land

Monday, August 10, 2009

Yesterday....
It was the day i remembered a lot.
I remember the time when i didn't earn my own money.
Before i depended on myself.
Before i had to do what i need to do.
To be able to be free of the burden i have to hold.

When you were a kid.
You were free but you wished to grow up.
As you see that staying awake is so fun.
When you grew up.
You wish to be a kid again.
You're awake but you wish to sleep.

What you once had remember to treasure that only in your memories.
Once the chance is gone, it might never return to you.

The stay in church made me feel free again.
Free from my duties.
Free from my work.
Free from camp.
Alive, living again.

I enjoyed singing like before.
Having fun.
Laughing as i sung wrongly or forgotten how to sing my part.
In turn singing the base.

We remembered many things of the past.
Things we wish to bring back.
Yet we have so little time now.
Can be bring those things we lost back ?
God you brought me hope hearing that.
Will the plan be able to pull through ?

I realised SK wasn't as perfect as i thought.
Hahahaha.
He is still human i guess.
Err... Nvm... I have my flaws i shall not speak of his.

Jo Jo got stucked.
Sawing off the gates to save a stucked dog.
Hahaha.
Hopefully heaven gates doesn't allow people to get stuck as well.

Ain't we all getting stuck in between now ?
We were suppose to pass by the gates smoothly but now we are stuck.
As Pr. Chin said.
Be wary as the devils are waiting to devour us.
I ain't holy.
And i know i've gone out from his gates.
I've wandered too far.
Hopefully God will be my watch tower again.
Shinning his light in the mist of the thick fog.

Congratz to the two lovey couples.
I'm sorry but i was too sleepy to say more.
But truely, i should think before i speak in the future.
For i don't wish to forgot what God gave me.
And my promise to him.

I shall hold my tongue.
I shall not blabber wicket things.
This two will be my goal for now.

As for love life.
Forget it.
I surrender.
Now is not the time.
Maybe in the future.

I just watched a show "10 promises to my dog"
Although the show was a little broken, in terms of links.
But more or less i get the idea being transmitted.
I shall not give away what i have now.
I shall make full use of every moment.
Please make me a new man again.
Let me stay within your grasp.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
6:19 pm

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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Slowly dissolving.
Yet people come back to pull me up.
Though they might have threw a string.
It wasn't conviencing enough to make me go back up.

Guess i got a slap from God now.
Worldly life won't get you anyway i guess.
It's been a long time since i blogged about anything.
But the rope that impacted me has been thrown i cannot continue keeping slient.
Now it's up to me to grab it or continue sinking into the deep ocean.

When it's too late i'll be consumed by it's raging waters and sink into the darkness.
Funny to blog about death.
I advise someone about it when been asked, yet i myself am going towards the other direction.
I feel like holding on to the rope.
But it seems too comfortable in the water.
Maybe being in the warmth of the land for too long makes the ocean so attractive.
I wanna break free for awhile.
Just sink for awhile.

Just be free for awhile before i decide.
Maybe this is my last post.
Maybe not.
But God is always waiting.
Should i make him wait longer ?
What right do i have to make him wait ?
Even if a stranger were to say i'll wait for you.
You will meet the person right ?
Why make the person wait for you ?

Hopefully the person moves away and go home.
I don't want to be missed.
I just want to disappear, and carry on my journey.
A wise man told me once.
We have to carry out our own journey, good or bad will be up to our decision and the actions we make.

So long.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
3:14 pm

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Saturday, June 20, 2009

I'm wondering why am i so angry ?
I'm wondering why humans live in this world ?
I'm wondering why f***ers live in this world riding cars.
I wondering why i did not slam my e brake when i knew he made me fail.
I'm wondering why the hell am i called a christain.

Maybe it's time....
Yet while learning to drive i meet alot of new people.
New instructors.
New friends.
People whom i can get along with and i can relate to.

You do not fail when you see the red ink.
You failed when you gave up on yourself.

I really kind of hate things associated with church.
Even on facebook.
The choir videos... Bah bah bah....
I kind of want to delete that person from facebook just for writting that.
It pisses me off to see that words.

Any way breaking up isn't such a bad thing.
Thanks to a certain someone who walked with me and talk with me.
Tell me things.... I kind of felt better.
But i made her day bad instead....
Oh well.... Guess i was a jinx on that day.
It felt good talking it out, although we kind of change the subject.
And started to talk crap.

Anyway don't want to elborate more.
Personal stuff will remain in my head.
For me to know and you to find out. Buzz off...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:01 am

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

Woman....
Oh well...
Can't leave without them,
but when you are with them you don't feel like living.

The irony of things.
Well....
I can't say much there is many things you have to consider.
It's not all the time when they have faults.

Although usually it's the girls that cause mayhem.
Funny, being kind you imagin a girl.
But being a person who causes the trouble is also a girl.

Anyway got the present and went my way.
Mixed up my gf's birthday with my niece.
Last wed was my niece's birthday and i didn't buy anything.
So i bought one yesterday.

Lucky for me i didn't buy my gf any present.
I was still wondering what should i buy.
Hmm... The flu bug has been coming to me lately.
I wonder why ?
I guess i should eat more fruits.
Asked suggestions on what girls like from some people.

I got definite answer from one. (Thank you so much.)
And an indirect answer asking me to find something that i pick for her would be good enough.
It's the thought that count.
So in simple, go find it yourself.
LOL. Let you guys do the thinking, who told me that ?
It was a mature answer but so far this kind of people i would shoot back if we were talking face to face.
And i know for certain my gf ain't mature.
So no point asking like that liao.

Anyway next week was my gf birthday.
How did i know it was not this coming week ?

Lucky she called and ask me what occassion it's gonna be next wed.
Hahaha.... Not bad, this way i don't need to remember the birthdays.
Just wait for the hint.
Muahahaha. I guess i make a bad bf.
But i treat her good though.
Just that i'm bad with numbers.
So i can't remember a single thing about birthdays.
Other than my own since it's needed for me to write my birthday on forms.

I'm still thinking what to buy for her.
Hmm... Yup just came back after shopping with her just now.
Her choice of cloths are, hmm... Getting shorter...
Maybe because i haven't been paying much attention to her.
I guess i should ask her out more, spend more time with her.
She must be feeling lonely without saying it to me.
Hahaha. Guess she is starting to get mature...
She is starting to think more for me instead of just her.
She wanted to buy some cloths for me.
But i want to shop this friday with Devil Jin.
So i guess i'm sorry babe.
I'll buy you something from tampine 1.
After i book out.

It's so stupid... I book out and later book back in to go UBI.
That's just so dumb. WTH.
Should just let me book out and go UBI from there.

Hahaha.... And the lame gay jokes.
You can't tell jokes girl.
Gotta buck up.
Even my gay jokes so lame also win you.
Muahahaha... Actually those are my buddies joke.
Recently we have been telling jokes in the bunk before lights off.
So we laugh like mad before we sleep.
Hahaha. That's why some times when you tell jokes i don't laugh.
So if i've offended you in anyway. I apologist.[Copied SK's line (^_^')]

The more i study law, the more afraid i am.
I can offend the law so easily.
Yet i do not know it, since i was ignorent from knowing such things.

Recently i keep dreaming.
Why am i killing my friends one by one ?
Or even seeing them die ?
Hmm.... It's been a long time since i enjoyed gore.
But in the future won't i get to see the real thing ?
Things not like those in video games ?

Oh well. I wonder...
Anyway i gotta go find people to bug.
I'm bored sleeping the whole day.
Byez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
6:37 pm

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